alright, well i m back again. um okay

monday-

bad day again i guess? um, well until i came home from ashley lynns with ashley. her n i just hung out for a while n then nic came over later, that kid is such a character. um, we had tonz of fun guys. lol, walmart, the fields, the neighborhood with the spraypainted sign n the stop sign n the yard. and the dead ppl n deer walkin across the road, whew, that wasnt a scary thought. um then my mom wouldnt let me stay the night out here so i went back home n did some homework. dont u hate it when u fall asleep in the shower? i do.

alright so today-

well, today, i woke up and did something real crazy to my hair. right now its as stiff as a board. WHEW, i think if i try messing with it it will break. no im just kidding but its pretty close. but alright, had an ok day at school, and then something happened, lol, but besides that! um negus n i went tanning again today, n brynn, janna, thanks for the ride n making it so pleasent. haha. um, then when we were done, t-row brought us back out here-what a nice kid. n his camaro, haha u know u want it! and we just hung out here for a little bit then went down to kristins for a little. um.. later we went to bw3's with aussie and stanger, woah, that was weird guys. lol, not really, pretty normal. but i didnt eat there, now thats not normal. haha, yes, fat becca here.. lol NOT.. but anyway. oo and also today, they stood me up next to this girl thats like 6-2 and im what? i dont even know! but yeah, thats like my day for you. and tonight i thought about stuff, stuff is still on my mind, but heres a little song for you to download if you are bored or feel you need to

*Standing still* jewel

but im out for now, ill talk to this thing later

alright, so i havent written in this thing in about 5 days?

thursday- not so exactly fun i dont remember?? wait i stayed the nite out at ashleys house. shes a fun little gal... well,not like that but u know what i mean. and yeah, we just hung out had a good time i guess..

friday- afterschool i went over to jamies house and hung out with her mom for a little bit, and then we headed out to her softball game *which they completely demolished the team they were playing, and then later we met up with danielle. um us three went to the benson game *which we won, again* and then jamie and i went back to her house. i stayed the night there n this time it was my turn to be the big sister. i love jamie soo much! well then on saturday i woke up intime for her second game, and we saw tomy and tyler and leah up there playing a little tennis. so later jamie kim and i went to the mall, and i got a new homecoming dress and jamie got a new one too and some jewelery. and we were in glamour shots and jay saw mark and ono and junge, so that was alright. we came home and went out to eat. MORE FOOD I ATE SOO MUCH THAT DAY. and then i stayed out at ashleys, and dani stayed out there too, and nic, colby, charles, shaeli, and josh stopped by. so that was fun. um, went to bed real early, and left at about 3 today, n hung out w/ my brother - hes crazy- he wanted me to get drunk wih him n his friends tonight, im like, ive never got drunk n plus i got school, hes like oo ill have u home by 4 its like RIIIGHT! but yeah, then i went to liz's for homework, and now im home. and people keep running through my mind, i just wish it would go away, or come back,  dont know, but i dont want to talk about it. so later journal/everyone.

okay, so i missed yesterday and today, lets see. um yesterday. interesting day i guess. um, school sucked and i had a ton of hw and i didnt do any of it-o well-. and then i went out to ashleys n slept for like 2 n a half hours. we went driving. i had to go home cuz my mom wanted me to study for a test. but then my friend jamie (who never lets me down, even when i wanna go down) needed help... so i went n stayed the night there--u gotta love my friends. and then so i ate like tonz of food while i was there... n i tried to turn that frown upside down on her. n i went to bed.. its crazy.. but nvm, i wont go there. um then this morning my mom picked us up for school, and then school happened again, a pretty good day, u know, those days where u dont really care about anything, even if u got punched n the face, and i went home w/ brynnie... even though i was supposed to go home. but then we went tanning and out to eat and jumping on the trampolien *n place of running* and yeah im a freak, whos body does that anyway? haha, um, *keep the candle burning* *you were meant for me* *the remedy* and *all or nothing* songs of the night. um, brynn, shes soo funny n even if u wanna have a bad day, she just wont let u. god, her n i have the same problems, lifes a bitch! and then we went to nikkis house n got brynns dress thing done, n here i am at home listening to *perfect* like 30 times. one of my favorite songs and you should listen to it. um, heres a few quotes for the night....

>even if you want to end your life today, live for your tomorrows and your future...<

^you think your alone there in your silent storm, but i see, the tears u cry.. falling down and trying to drown, the flame.. of hope inside...... let me tell u now, tell u noww.... ::WHEN U WALK IN TO THE DEAD OF NIGHT, WHEN UR SOUL IS CHURNING, WHEN YOU THINK YOUR HOPE IS OUTTA SIGHT, KEEP THE CANDLE BURNING. ALL IT TAKES IS ONE STEADY HEART, N A WORLD THATS TURNING, SHINE A LIGHT AND PIERCE THE DARK, KEEP THE CANDLE BURNING::^

i have more but ill save them.

-later-

::*BFrank*::